Reducing the power

A problem shared is a problem halved. That is what my mum always used to say.

She was right. 

Sometimes, though, sharing the problem can be a step too far and that was how I felt when I discovered that despite my best efforts to find the best home for my horse, he was being sold on already.

Less than six months on. 

I am devastated. I am heartbroken.  Sharing it was almost impossible with my wife and my therapist, let alone any body else. 

A few weeks ago, I recorded myself taking about it. I vowed to make real, authentic content that is a true representation of my struggles and my life. 

Afterwards I locked my phone and tried to close it off in a place in my mind. A cupboard where all my stresses go to protect myself.

I wanted it to stay there.

Even in that cupboard though, it has been eating at me. 

Last night I felt brave enough to open it. To do a very basic edit on it and to share it on my YouTube channel. I could have easily not ever shared it, but I needed to, because somehow I knew that by doing so, would help me process.

Less than 12 hours later, a friend messages me because my video resonates with her, too. 

By speaking out, it lets other people realise that they are not alone and whilst I think I originally shared it for me to feel authentic, I think now I can say I've shared it for others to help them know that they are not alone. 

Life can be tough and this situation has reminded me of that. It has also reminded me that it really is OK to not be ok. It is OK to be struggling. 

If someone shows something vulnerable, and it resonates, let them know. You might just be saving them. 💕

The video: https://youtu.be/M1oTCpdy42A?si=NAnVRR0sQT_c6t0U